success--update

My weight has been holding steady at the 139 lb. mark. My body has changed more and more...clothes fitting, looking leaner, etc. I'm actually wearing a pear of shorts today, and although am a bit self conscious, I don't feel disgusted by my reflection in the mirror. My legs are still tubby (the worst part of me is the upper thighs to the hip region), but they are starting to have that muscular shape when I move--you can tell there is something good going on underneath, and it is exciting!

I'm officially signed in to my race for June 6th. I am now able to run for 5 miles straight, although I am slow--it takes me an hour to finish. I'm working on strengthening my ability and speed now. My race isn't about winning...it's about accomplishing something I never thought I would actually do. Not that I haven't been a bit of a fitness freak, but actually putting myself in a race, and involving other people in my workout...out of character, for sure!

My diet hasn't been caloric restricted--but definitely monitored!!! I write down everything I eat, and figure the % of carbs, fats, proteins, and grams of fiber, etc. I aim for 35-45% carbs, 30-35% fats, and 25-30% protein. It is considered an 'isocaloric' breakdown of calories, if you want to google the concept. Bodybuilders seem to like this type of diet. I can honestly say, that I'm not at all disappointed in the results, when it comes to becoming strong and lean.

I'm wanting to take it to the next level. I saw a girl last night, and she was rather motivating, to say the least. It was her legs that I loved the most. I remember my legs looking like that. Muscular, yet thin and lean--'athletic' and 'shapely'--would possibly be good words to describe it. By the end of the summer, I want to be back to a very athletic looking me. I'll take whatever weight that comes at, so long as I'm wearing my tiny summer clothes. They are size 3. When I wore them, I was 102 lbs. , but I bet I can get into them heavier than that, with the muscle weight considered.

In order to do this, I believe I need to step up my workouts a bit...maybe get on board with a little caloric restriction--carefully, so as to avoid muscle loss before my race day. Today, I'm going to play with the numbers just a bit, and see what kind of direction I want to take next. I'm so excited! The 'smaller me' is starting to show again, and I'm feeling really happy.