so far today

Early evening...

I really want to break into a can of tuna...or dip a pretzel rod in some fudge right now. Something...anything... ***frantically looks from side to side, as though someone might catch me in the guilty act***

But-- only part of me wants that. The other part of me (and hopefully the stronger part right now) is telling me that I don't need it, and that I'll be much happier to wait until there are raw veggies available at the party tonight with very little damage.

I only got in 250 'calories' today at the gym. There's no sense in figuring the actual calories burned, because it is less with every lb. I lose. 250 calories is what I would have burned, had I only weighed 93 lbs. . A nice standard to stick to, so that I'll be prepared for the nearly-no-calories-burned-for-the-effort-I put-out rate when I actually reach that weight for real.

I ran 2.5 miles, and walked for 10 minutes with 15% incline for about another 1/3 of a mile. Kind of a weenie workout today. Maybe more to come tonight on the elliptical? Or just going to bed early, to avoid food temptations...

So, I'm 250 calories up, with veggie calories yet to be added. I need to keep my perspective; even though it isn't as good as I was hoping I would do, it is still moving in the proper direction, and weight loss will happen, in spite of my lack of... ? ... (whatever it is that makes one capable of not eating, yet still able to workout for hours on end).

I'm going to head in for a shower, and weigh myself. That should help me to avoid the urge to cram some food-like substance into this already disgusting body.

I've been considering that I should weigh at night, rather than morning. It could deter me from eating during the day. No one wants to be mocked by the scale, while they still carry evidence of the crime on (or in) their person!!!