status today

I'm still at 146 lbs. at 8:30 p.m.

I've drank 16 oz. caffeine-free coffee, and 1 gallon of water (sugar-free flavor packets added) in increments of 4 / 32oz. bottles.

I walked 5 miles on the treadmill during my volunteer hours at the gym.

I took a soak in the hot bath water (my version of a hot-tub, lol) because I read that it burns extra calories due to the rise in body temperature. You can click on the link on the left of my blog column, to read it for yourself. I've switched from showers to hot baths for the most part as a result.

My stomach finally growled today at 7:30 p.m., while I was on the treadmill. I haven't even missed eating, since starting fast-5. What's it been...2 weeks almost now? I'm on it for life. Don't wanna fight the food battles and weight issues ever again.

I'm having a diet Pepsi, with my feet up, and I'm pooped!!! Completely worn out! I can tell my body is fighting an infection. I just can't get energized.

I'm debating on doing that pop-corn, or if I wanna skip it altogether, since I'm not hungry. Logic tells me I need to eat, so I can go running tomorrow.

I've got to keep up with the training for my race. I just found out some of the people running in it, and they are in very good shape. I must confess, I had some fears arising today about how crazy I am for trying to do this. What business do I have of trying to measure up to people like them? What if I'm the last one to finish? Or the fattest one to enter the race? What if I can't finish at all? They'll all be standing at the finish line waiting for the fat girl to drag her huge butt across. What if they send a photo crew out there again like last year, who will insist on embarrassing me to death with a printed photo in the newspaper? AAAACCCCCKKKKKK!

I don't have a choice, though, do I? I have to prove to myself that I can do this. I've got to! I just don't think I can live with myself if I don't accomplish this. Or at least give it my all-time best effort. Giving up is way too easy. And I always hate myself for it afterwards.

Here's wishing you all that you feel good about yourselves today. Do what you have to do to get there!