Here we go!

Today was awesome. I am so ready to start tomorrow.

Church was exactly what I hoped it would be, and I am ready to be disciplined! I want this so much. I am going to change! No more pathetic-ness. No more whining. No more living based on my feelings!

I spent today hanging out with my family and... eating as much as I can of whatever...because:

I'm going to weigh in tonight, at the end of the day, after eating for 8 freaking days! I'll see the absolutely worst possible scenario, which is going to be my shameful new start weight for SBC. I've been as bad as I can be, and I want to be completely and utterly disgusted. I expect it to be horrendous, and it had better sicken me to see it; although I've spent a great deal of time on the crapper today...don't know what's going on there!?!... I didn't try to do that. But I'm guessing that by now, after food all week, I'm full of Poo, and I should hopefully weigh a ton, as my rightful punishment. I deserve every lb. that is swinging from my hippo-bottom-us. Hungry Hates Hippo. That's what I'm going to chant to myself as I pound out every mile on the treadmill.

Tomorrow is it.
No more mercy.
Tomorrow, I am on a 5-day, virtually non-calorie liquid fast. If I eat anything, whatsoever, it must be followed by a punishment of equal calories on my elliptical machine, due by midnight of that day, not including my regular workouts, which will be extra, as they are for the purpose of training for my race. I may even require a minimum amount of calories per day additional on the elliptical, just for the heck of it.

'Discipline', 'Determination', 'Motivation',---...I'm starting a collection of motivational words, concepts, ideas, and etc. --a new success blog could possibly act as the 'storage area' for these.

Well, it's midnight. Time for my date with the scale. brb...
149.0 lbs. That is exactly 6.4 lbs. up from my original start weight for SBC 8 days ago. The day my binginess began. 6.4 lbs. of stuff in and on my body that wasn't there just over a week ago. Saltiness, poopiness, and all of today's food, calories, and fat rotting in my bulging gut. That's what I did in 8 days. Cripes!

My work is cut out for me.
So the original goal was to reach...131 lbs. by March 14th. A new, reasonable goal, in light of the current situation would be... (calculating)... ***3 weeks of time remaining vs.4 ...+ 6 lbs. gained...+ pooing and a liquid fast...+ busting my butt running... + fast-5 most of the duration?...***
I'm going to say my new goal to be 139 lbs. or less, emphasis on the less. I'm keeping the personal goal of 50 miles to be the same. That gives me 3 weeks to lose at least 10 lbs., some of which should go away quickly.

I seriously hope you all won't mind my changing this...I've got to have an actually attainable goal to make it worth the effort--I want to have a chance of succeeding at something. I apologize for my failure this past week. I hope you can be understanding. I will do my best not to let you all down again!!!

I've got to get to bed, so as to have a good start on tomorrow's everything.

My best wishes to all of you, on the new week!

Together, we will all make sure that the earth doesn't spin out of it's orbit underneath the obesity of it's own inhabitants. Our comfort pales in comparison to the prevention of our planet careening off it's course. We will save the world! We are heroes, forever to be hallowed in the halls of hunger. Starve on!